selebit*

hello,
good evening..
soon to be good morning.

right now theres something going through me.
it isnt sitting well.
it doesnt feel right,
im trying to figure out how to give a word to the deffinition.
have you ever woke up looked to both sides of you
and felt like something changed from when you went to sleep
to when you woke up?
have you ever tried to speak but when you did,
your thoughts didnt even make sense?

i have an abstinence for nonsense.
i dont allow it,
i dont do it,
nor understand the point in it.
its almost like being selebit to the superficial of the world.
so when i dont feel like the real me,
it bothers me like you wouldnt believe.
im havin moodswings,
im havin cravings.. not for food
but for something real.
i wanna hear someone tell me a realization
they had, because thats when i smile.
i just wanna be broken.
then be fixed.
i wanna struggle,
but float within an instant;
and i wanna know when i wake up in the morning,
my life is as real as i left it..
even though it aint as completely real
as i want it.

selebit to the superficial,
and thats how its staying.