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so i hate saying this
"new year, new me"
i look at that phrase and think why
does it take the countdown to a new year to decide for change?

but in any case..
a lot of people have asked me.. "so whats you're new years reso?"
and i couldnt honestly give them a straight answer..
it seams as though there are so many things in life that need to get done..
that one year, simply isnt enough..
three-hundred and sixty-five days just doesnt cut it.
so after being asked this so many times i decided to lay down, chill
and think it through. questioning.. what do i wanna do?
who do i wanna be? where do i wanna go?

because not just this year, but life isnt about:
-being the "sweetest"
-having the latest trends
-dating the cutest person

i thought to myself the best thing to do in life
is to do what makes you a more wholesome positive person:
-not making "for the moment" decisions
-not going to extreme lengths to get something that will only do you wrong
-and being your own self.. flatout

i took all this time to think about what it is that i really need
i need to love myself more, and leave the people who have the shit to say alone,
youre not rowing my boat for me, so why should i let you sink it?
fact: i have sincere people who love me
fact: i have a bright future
fact: maybe if i hushed my mouth sometimes, i would do right on my own behalf
fact: everyone has their flaws, and thats what makes them beautiful

so im not calling this a new years reso: its a life-time journey

so without further a due: stability