give and take

hello hello hello,
so its been a while i know
but you know school gets busy and all..
and sometimes.
you just dont have time.
but today im going to share a piece that
will surely brighten your spirits

i awake to find him smiling,
to feel the air between my fingers move
breezing in and out, up and through
i can taste last nights sweet memory, it sits on the curve around my lips
and then he opens his eyes, see that i remember this memory and replaces it like this..
he never left when i was sleeping,
he never chose to walk out my bedroom door,
he stayed and laid and with nothing paid, did not expect to receive more
he did not push to get the full limits, and the pressure was that of feathers
and my heart only beats as fast as the tears drip, as once said by many; he makes me better
i cannot strive for more then what i am taking.
i cannot expect to be exploited because i wont..
and i go to question why it is he loves me but his fingers shush me explaining dont
he never has to say it, he refuses under conditions because the preliminary excuses and uses cannot be made to be a a contradiction. he leaves it at "it is what it is" just know that you are different, the one i can see my life heading into the one i can see myself having kids with.
it is a give and take, an unsigned understood agreement,
and out of all bounds and rules and regulations.. even when signed to something official..
i never received this treatment.
we call it a give and take not a standard set of relations.. because that what the others were not relationships, but relations.. on desired occasion.

its a give and take,
an unwritten understood agreement,
and there are no claims even though i consider myself his;
nothing matches his treatment.

let it be know, its a give and take.