she's always down for you

hello everyboday !
so today myself and my friend monique
had to travel down to mississauga
because my parents had lost my health card.
so i had to go all the way down there and replace it.
so the office is right outside square one,
so i figured im already down here might
aswell do some shopping [L]
so i go in the mall knowing i have to buy a pair
of shoes.. not kicks sadly.. but pumps for a sweet 16
this saturday. so i bought the shoes what ever and now i had to stress about accessories,
and the color of the shoe was awkward so i was in for a real treat finding
corresponding material to go with them
as me and my friend were passing the body shop
i couldnt help but think of my mom..
fragrance and what not..
so i thought to myself..
how many times does she go out and buy me stuff
how many times does she have to bail me out of shit
i got myself into
how many times a day do i get rude with her in which i am SOO out of place
how many times do i take it in and appreciate all the things she sacrafices
because im in the picture?
how many times do i sit down and and spend time with her when she is alone at home..
i rather go galavanting with my hoodlem friends and leave her to dry, when all she wanted was to chill with HER bestfriend?
so today i thought to myself..
instead of going buck wild in H&M buying all the beautiful trinkets my eyes laid gaze on..
i went into the body shop and went up to dude and said..
i want to buy my mom something.. he asked me is it her birthday?
special occasion? and i was like no.. i just want to buy her something..
and suprise her.
he showed me some mini gift baskets, and told me coconut was the hottest this season,
so i baught it for her.

i never even thought to care about the money i could
still have in my wallet (or in H&M's cash register)
the thought of my mom's sacrafices overpowered that,
and it drove guilt if you will into me.

i wrote a small note in a card and left it for her when she walked in the door..
something soo small, made her grin sooo many teeth,
and that felt better than any necklace around my neck would.

so the next time you go to buy
the latest nike release..
or you found out H&M is having an 80% (yes hard to resist i know i know) sale..
think about grabbing a lil summin-summin for mommy..

because through all the people that walk in and out your life..

-she's always down for you