R E L I G I O N

helloooooooooo !

soo tonight i have something superduper amazing to talk about. and i know
by the title some of you are like, oh great.. saturday night church.
but thats not what im doing tonight. so last night i went to my friend
erica's birthday get together at her house, and i was talking to some people
and some how we got on the topic of "run this town" and the back masking in it,
and the hidden lyrics. i knew that jay-z's song "99 problems" had mack masking in it..
but i never knew jay-z was a big time satanist that ALL his music contained it?
[or majority anyways] so today as i was sick i thought im bored.. i want to do some research.
so i did research on jay-z and this devil business and i came to learn and discover
how many other artists do this. from the rocawear logo.. to beyonce's alter ego "sasha fierce"
[which actually derived from the demonic egyptian princess "sasha" way back before jesus' time]
to rihanna using it in her umbrella song! i came to discover sooo many things about the music industry and how many artists use it that i [for the first time in all of my life] hesitated to
listen to music. i usually play music no matter WHAT im doing.. whether im on the comp, cleaning my room, reading, watching tv, on a bus somewhere; but today i hesitated just because
all i could think about was the fact that.. what am i really listening too? what is actually being
told to me when i listen to these songs. I BET none of you know that soulja boy's "crank that"
has back masking in it too. its not dissing god.. but played backwards it talks about eminem
being emo.. and how white people "steal his food" in the metephor speaking "white people
take the food off his table/money out his pockets" havnt you ever wondered why back in Beyonce's destiny child days her music was so relaxed almost and "pop-ish" but nowa days she always look like she is having some mental breakdown in her videos? its only ever since she has been with jay has these occurences taken place. i look at things like this and cant help but wonder.. what else is going on around me that i have no idea about that influences me everyday?
something as bold face as "3-6 mafia" NEVER occured to me its meaning, i never thought to put
2 and 2 together. and that is something blatently obvious. it made me start questioning
where i am with my faith. Religion to me has always been something important, but i wont
front i cant say it has always dominated my life. i pray before i sleep, and usually before i eat
but i never actually free willingly sit down and connect with God for a minute. It struck
fear into me of where im going to be when my life is done. who i will be before i die, and what path my life is set to follow because of my lack of spiritual connection. it genuinly scares me because i dont know what position im in right now, i cant actualy be certain that if i died right now where id be. and to me.. that is a problem. i want to be sure of where ill be for all of eternity.
it just shocked me that music, something i spend most of my life making, listening to, enjoying,
doing everything too... could have such evil in it.

just gave me a glance at something ive never seen before.